This week I’ve started working on this website. How do I want it to look? What do I want to share? What is important to me?
I was inspired to start blogging because of another blog I read this week. It was all written by the ex-girlfriend of a late famous rap artist. Something about reading the reflections of somebody so close to fame, close to an artist I really enjoy, but so raw and open.
When I lived in France in the spring of 2023, I thought maybe I should start journaling. That was the least I could do to document some thoughts during a very unique experience, and I began to really enjoy it. I think I once considered using a blog might be equally as liberating. Yet, I’ve never seen myself as a “blog” type of person. I never felt a draw to publicizing my life and my mind. I do think writing is super powerful, and if you know me, you know I always have a lot to say! Now that I’ve had over a year of experience journaling, I see much greater value in sharing my thought process.
Journaling gives me a space to think and grow. One of my favorite self-soothing techniques is to convert my thoughts to words. I like to talk to myself to understand what I’m thinking. It’s like reading a piece of writing out loud and seeing it not for what it is within your mind, but how it exists outside of yourself. To be able to hear my own thoughts and remove them from my own mind gives me perspective, and reduces my anxieties greatly. I’ve been doing this since I was probably 10 years old. This is similar to journaling. To be able to see my words, whether or not I reread them after they’re written, gives my brain the opportunity to let them go. To physically (and verbally) remove my thoughts, specifically the negative ones, allows me to let go in a way I struggle with otherwise.
So this blog is meant to capture that sentiment. My brain is powerful and my experiences throughout my incredibly privileged life highly valuable. Why not share them then, as a passive dialogue with whomever finds this site in the first place?
I have no experience doing this. I have no idea what works for me, and what works for a reader. I’m excited to not only explore my own thoughts but also translate them in a way that allows you all to think, too.